Daily Life
The other things that go through my mind daily..
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*Sigh*
I’m tired. This constant back and forth is really getting old.. No it’s way past old. It’s hard to tell the difference from anyone these days. Everyone acting the same. Petty being petty. Miserable being miserable. Backstabbing being backstabbing. Just can’t trust ANYONE!! At some point you have to sit back and watch the plans unfold in front of you!
People are always going to say something about you and they will always have something to say. It’s the way of life. But if you give in now to exactly what she wants, nothing will EVER change. And all of this DRAMA, DRAMA, DRAMA, BULLSHIT, and DRAMA will still be here tomorrow. People are CRAZY, there is no denying that all. But if you give in to all of this like you are right now, nothing will get better. It will just get worse from here. And NO ONE will ever be happy. Especially the ones that truly deserve happiness, YOU! You deserve to be happy. Don’t let a non-factor steal your happiness and joy. Because once you let them steal that, there is no getting it back. And the ones that care about you and are always there for you will get fed up and LEAVE. No matter how hard it will be to leave. But they can’t keep playing these games.
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Trust Issues
I wish i could fully trust you again. But you have given me so many reasons not to. And lately it doesn’t seem like it will ever change. I’m hoping and praying it does. But one thing i have learned is not to expect anything because expecting usually leads to disappointment. And i’ve been disappointed and hurt way too many times to keep putting myself through this. But for some reason I can’t fully let go. Maybe I should and maybe i shouldn’t. but i won’t know until after this weekend…
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Life…
Soo the past week has been anything but easy. I have people causing constant drama in my life because they can’t/won’t grow the FUCK up! I just wish all of this would end, so both of us could be happy, but sadly it won’t. And i damn sure refuse to be the one hurt, as selfish as that sounds. I’ve been the one hurt too many times. But to walk away from MY man and our relationship would be cowardly of me. To even give this bitch the satisfaction to even be a factor in my life. And it’s fine if she doesn’t want me there, she’s only hurting herself, because honey I can promise you this I AM NOT GOING ANYWHERE!!!!!
